I haven't been posting for a while about the restaurant, because I am going through a phase of doubts and wasn't in the mood to share dessert or starter photos. My motivation and drive for creativity has dropped sharpely and so has my enthusiasm for the restaurant where a couple of weeks ago I still believed I would stay for a couple of years. I am still waiting for this phase to end and hoping to be able to return to a more positive state of mind. I believe that my mistake was that I got too involved and too engaged in the operations of the restaurant, almost acting as if it was my own. While in the beginning the owner and the chef have lifted me up and expressed their admiration and appreciation continuously, all my extra contributions have become now the standard for them, positive returns are now an exception and I even sometimes feel negative vibes and pressure during service which has not existed for the first months I worked there. I feel I have lost the extremely good relation to the owner, which has been driving my enthusiasm, and while I am making more and more efforts every day to get the initial atmosphere back, I believe I need to step out or back emotionally from the restaurant, and consider it just as a milestone towards my ultimate goal. This is probably more realistic, after all I am just a poorly paid emloyee and not an associate, but the thought makes me sad.